Oh my, it happened so fast.
I am delayed for a few days and my husband is teasing me that maybe I am
pregnant. I haven’t done any pregnancy test as it is too early as my friends told
me. But I felt something different in me. I didn’t experience any morning
sickness such as dizziness or vomiting etc... I just felt that I am always
hungry which is unusual for me because I don’t eat rice (except on my cheat
day) for a couple of months now and I eat small portion that is enough to get
me through the day/night. But this time is different; I have to wake up early in
the morning to eat something (sometimes I only drink water). I also need to frequently
go to the bathroom to pee. I am always tired and sleepy. Are these signs of
pregnancy?
After my period was delayed for a week, I asked my friend to buy me a
pregnancy test kit. I was a little excited and nervous at the same time and
can’t wait to go home to try it. After the day was over, as I was reading the
instruction, my husband saw me and asked what I am reading. I told him about
the test and he said to go ahead.
The moment of reality, as I wait for the results (the instruction is 5
mins waiting) I was positive that I am “positive”. And it is true, I will
become a mother. I cannot explain my feelings. My husband was teasing me if I
was happy, and of course I said yes…
It didn’t end there, my husband shared the news to my Facebook friends
and most of them congratulated us.
After my pregnancy test, I encounter some questions and worries and
doubts because I had my spotting for 2 days. Most of the people are saying that
it is normal and part of pregnancy so I don’t need to worry that much, I even
searched the internet about the matter and it tells me the same (but need to
consult my doctor). Some says that I should visit a doctor immediately, which I
am planning to do but I don’t have insurance. My insurance is still under
process for the addition of maternity benefits on it. I felt uneasy and worried
because I felt “normal” after my spotting, thoughts like, “did I lose my baby?”
struck me but I immediately rebuke it because it is not from the Lord. I prayed
to God to give me the peace of mind and to protect me and the baby and asked
Him that my insurance will come out.
After calling our HR for a couple of times to inquire of the insurance,
it came at the time that they promised it. I thanked God because He never fails
to amaze me. That night, we went to the hospital for check-up. We saw the
“baby” and heard his/her heartbeat. I felt amaze at the sound of the heartbeat
as it is very strong and fast. The doctor has given me medicine and
multivitamins for the pregnancy.
I didn’t actually expect it to be soon, but I’ve always wanted to have a
baby. It is my heart’s desire to hold my own baby and care for him/her. And I
cannot limit the ways of the Lord. And when He gives something it is always the
perfect time.
I praise God that He richly provide us everything that we need. I know
that there are times that I failed Him but his faithfulness and love is never
ending. I also know that this is another chapter in my life that I will face
challenges but I know that God is always with us and He will never leave us nor
forsake us. I don’t know much about motherhood but I know with God’s grace I
can be able to become good at it (I hope, hahaha). I pray to God to guide us in
every step of the way so that we will be able to be a good parents to His
“gift” and provide for all the baby’s needs because He entrusted the child to
us.
God bless us more J
“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming
down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.”
– James 1:17
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